okay. I still went to the CHE grad rites earlier.
Well, it took me quite a long time to decide whether to go or not. Of course, there's still this feeling of bitterness inside. Sabi nga nina Blessie at Alie kanina, kung sila yung nasa lugar ko, di na lang sila pupunta. Ang sakit nga naman na makitang "naiwan" ka na ng batchmates mo.
But still, I decided to go since I also want to see my batchmates and specially my friends as they march on the stage, as they prepare themselves in embarking on a new journey in their lives.
Wala lang. There's this feeling kasi na makita mo lang na happy ang friends mo, happy ka na rin. Hehe. Ayun. Maybe this is one of the reasons why I chose to go there despite the inis after what happened. *shet. THIS IS NOT SO ME! sobrang emo, and in a way, clingy masyado sa friends hahaha :))*
Eh pero kasi naman, hindi mo ba mami-miss yung first hanggang last day of classes every semester na sila ang kasa-kasama mo -- sa pagri-research, pagchichikahan, pag-food trip, pag-e-emo, pag-eexperiment sa lab (sabay basag ng glasswares :P), pag-tambay, pag-compute ng CFU/g sa mga food samples na nag-undergo ng micro tests, etc. etc.
Sabi nga ni Rox sa text kanina, ilang araw pa lang naman kaming hindi nagkikita, nami-miss ko na agad sila. (and di pa nila ako nakausap kanina, nakita lang nila ako nang di ko alam. haha. nagmamadali rin kasi ako kanina.) The fact na naiisip kong di na mauulit ang school days with them eh nami-miss ko na talaga tuloy sila. awwww :">
Sadyang napaka-bittersweet lang talaga ng araw na 'to. :')
Friday, April 15, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
'cause obviously, I will miss SPF 14 so badly. :')
(L-R) first row, standing: Cha, Celina, Jenny, Rox
second row, sitting: Joanne, Kenneth, Janina, Chinkee, Mabel
third row, floor, sitting: Verna, Anpy, Jache
some of our barkada grad pics ♥
*minus 2 pala 'to kasi wala sina Kara at Janus*
photos from Celina Tria :)
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
06 April 2011
...was the worst day of my life.
On April 6, 2011, my whole world crashed. My greatest dream was shattered.
I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO ATTEND THE UP CHE RECOGNITION RITES ON FRIDAY.
and it hurts me so bad na di ko kasabay magma-march ang batchmates ko, specially yung closest friends ko (SPF 14). Tapos three of them pa will be graduating with honors -- sina Chinkee (magna cum laude), Celina and Rox (cum laude). It hurts na I wouldn't be able to celebrate the graduation ceremonies with them.
but what hurts me the most is the fact that thesis is not the sole cause. Matatanggap ko pa sana kung ang dahilan ay ang di ko pagtapos ng thesis eh, kaso di muna tinuloy ang pag-check ng thesis ko dahil sa problema sa isang major subject.
and dahil dito, nakita akong umiyak ng FT friends ko for the first time in five years. :| Pag-iyak na pinagsisihan ko since wala namang sense ang iniiyakan ko. but hey, what can I do? Mahirap itago ang sama ng loob. of course, masama ang loob ko nung time na yun. MASAMANG-MASAMA. Wearing the sablay on time was my greatest dream, of course after ko malaman na I passed UPCAT (which meant I would be able to study in UP). I tried so hard na ipasa ang remaining subjects ko para naman on time akong ga-graduate.
But to no avail.
For the past few days, I kept on thinking what the hell went wrong. I even thought, "Am I that f*cking stupid?" 'cause my prof kept on claiming that I wasn't able to get the basic concepts of her subject. Oh shoot. I just don't want to discuss any further details. And I hope Chinkee wasn't that disappointed with me after what happened (siya kasi ang naging instant tutor ko, or should I say yung first option na binigay sa 'kin, bago ako nag-take ulit ng exam nung April 6).
On a good note, I was lucky that I didn't get a failing grade on that subject. That saves me from the horror of taking the same subject again (lalo na at every second sem lang siya kinukuha). But getting a conditional grade and having summer remedial sessions with my prof? Eh para na ring nakakuha ng singko ang feeling nun eh, lalo na kung ina-anticipate mo nang gagraduate ka kasabay ng batchmates mo.
And if someone asks me, "pupunta ka ba sa 15?" I would flatly answer, "No". I'm still disappointed and heartbroken with what happened. And attending the graduation ceremonies would only cause me much more pain inside.
Or maybe, something will make me change my mind and make me go to the grad ceremonies instead.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Long-Term Goals
Have I mentioned in this blog before na minsan inggitera ako sa mga nakikita kong pino-post ng mga contacts ko sa FB? Well eto, nainggit na naman ako. And this time, kay ma'am Elaine naman. hahaha :))
She posted a note kasi in FB stating her long-term goals in life (read it here). at siyempre, na-inspire naman ako bigla. hehe. so eto, I'll be sharing my long-term goals (or ang mga gusto kong ma-achieve 10 years from now):
1. Learn at least two forms of martial arts (top choices: tae kwon do at aikido since may background na 'ko dun. and of course, kung fu! haha)
2. Be an expert in playing the guitar and drums.
3. Work as a Research and Development officer in a well-known food company *naks. haha. :D feeling ko naman kasi di pa ako makakapagtayo ng sarili kong food company within 10 years. nasa plan pa lang siguro yun by that time. and siyempre pag ginawa ko yun, gusto ko kasama ko friends ko (hi SPF 14! hahaha) :P*
4. Pursue grad studies either in US or Australia *okay, feeling ko wala sa itsura ko ang may ganitong plan sa life hahaha. pero siyempre if given a chance, gusto ko rin. And this time, seseryosohin ko na talaga. Di na magpapadala sa pressure. :)*
5. Have my own car and build my own house in a safe place *emphasize on the word safe. ewan. I think I would want to retire somewhere far from the urban areas.*
6. Get another college degree! This time, gusto ko ng medyo malayo sa sciences. heehee :)) pero parang gusto ko ring i-try mag-Law. HAHAHAHAHA sheeeeet mas intense pressure nito :)) pero at least, wala nang calculus at di ako ire-require i-compute ang mass flow rate ng juice feed sa evaporator. :P eh kung mag-LAE kaya ako this year? haha trip lang :P
7. Build an orphanage or charity house or something related to them. wala lang, giving back the blessings na na-receive ko kay God. promise ko yan sa sarili ko ever since nag-aral ako. :)
8. Travel abroad! Haha! Well, gusto ko di lang vacation ang pakay ko kaya ako magta-travel outside Philippines. I also want to learn another language, study another culture, and baka may mapulot akong something dun about Food Science na pwede kong mai-apply dito sa Philippines. *naks!*
...so far, eto muna. kung may magtatanong kung bakit walang "raise my own family" or "have a married life", well, wala kasi sila sa mga plano ko -- as of now. bwahahahaha. :))
She posted a note kasi in FB stating her long-term goals in life (read it here). at siyempre, na-inspire naman ako bigla. hehe. so eto, I'll be sharing my long-term goals (or ang mga gusto kong ma-achieve 10 years from now):
1. Learn at least two forms of martial arts (top choices: tae kwon do at aikido since may background na 'ko dun. and of course, kung fu! haha)
2. Be an expert in playing the guitar and drums.
3. Work as a Research and Development officer in a well-known food company *naks. haha. :D feeling ko naman kasi di pa ako makakapagtayo ng sarili kong food company within 10 years. nasa plan pa lang siguro yun by that time. and siyempre pag ginawa ko yun, gusto ko kasama ko friends ko (hi SPF 14! hahaha) :P*
4. Pursue grad studies either in US or Australia *okay, feeling ko wala sa itsura ko ang may ganitong plan sa life hahaha. pero siyempre if given a chance, gusto ko rin. And this time, seseryosohin ko na talaga. Di na magpapadala sa pressure. :)*
5. Have my own car and build my own house in a safe place *emphasize on the word safe. ewan. I think I would want to retire somewhere far from the urban areas.*
6. Get another college degree! This time, gusto ko ng medyo malayo sa sciences. heehee :)) pero parang gusto ko ring i-try mag-Law. HAHAHAHAHA sheeeeet mas intense pressure nito :)) pero at least, wala nang calculus at di ako ire-require i-compute ang mass flow rate ng juice feed sa evaporator. :P eh kung mag-LAE kaya ako this year? haha trip lang :P
7. Build an orphanage or charity house or something related to them. wala lang, giving back the blessings na na-receive ko kay God. promise ko yan sa sarili ko ever since nag-aral ako. :)
8. Travel abroad! Haha! Well, gusto ko di lang vacation ang pakay ko kaya ako magta-travel outside Philippines. I also want to learn another language, study another culture, and baka may mapulot akong something dun about Food Science na pwede kong mai-apply dito sa Philippines. *naks!*
...so far, eto muna. kung may magtatanong kung bakit walang "raise my own family" or "have a married life", well, wala kasi sila sa mga plano ko -- as of now. bwahahahaha. :))
personality test
Got this from a personality quiz website last year. hehe. :))
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person (I don't think so.). And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person (hindi nga eh. haha.).
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively (what the... sooooo not meee! >_<). The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working (whut? clingy much? so not me rin yata 'to hahaha).
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. (ay this is so true, lalo na nung April 5, nung may nangyaring "trouble" sa isang subject ko. thank God for Chinkee! haha. kaso wala pa rin eh.) You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person (I don't think so.). And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person (hindi nga eh. haha.).
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively (what the... sooooo not meee! >_<). The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working (whut? clingy much? so not me rin yata 'to hahaha).
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. (ay this is so true, lalo na nung April 5, nung may nangyaring "trouble" sa isang subject ko. thank God for Chinkee! haha. kaso wala pa rin eh.) You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
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